A friend posted this quote from the musician, Eric Clapton, talking about how his identity in recovery (from alcoholism) keeps him “on the ground with my disease” and gives him greater pleasure because it “keeps me in a manageable size”.
He was talking about his disease of alcoholism but I think it applies to many more diseases and compulsive and addictive behaviors.
“Because it keeps me in a manageable size” resonates with me because of the humility it takes to accept a problem with weight management as mine alone.
It keeps me in a manageable size ego-wise primarily, (physical size, secondarily) by not thinking breezily, “Oh, I’ve got this” when, in fact, if I’ve “got it” it’s because I know I don’t “got it” and have to deal with it every day.
“My identity shifted when I got into recovery. That’s who I am now, and it actually gives me greater pleasure to have that identity than to be a musician or anything else, because it keeps me in a manageable size. When I’m down on the ground with my disease—which I’m happy to have—it gets me in tune. It gives me a spiritual anchor. Don’t ask me to explain.” -Eric Clapton